Im scared really really scared!?

i know nobodies perfect but i have a guilty mind even if i do something like kill a bug of make the wrong thing im allways thinking "im such a bad person your so useless" i even say im sorry and they forgive me but im still thinking bad i don't talk to them about it because im scared there gunna get more angry with me im allways positive but when it comes to the smallest bad thing i do im sad about it for days on end and im scared everybodys mad at me (the only fear i have is people say they "i hate you"that's why i dont use is and love everybody ..i try to tell everybody what im felling but im scared that they wont accept my feelings as they are..and i don't know what to do i cry because of it to i try to ignore it but somehow i cant ...and i have a chat i have vibes that no one on there even want me to be on and i should leave im scared to ask them straight up ..what should i do *hides under covers* im really scared ima say something dumb