Is it possible to hate your own mother?

My mom is currently getting divorced, and for the past year since my stepdad left. She's turned into a *****, I'm sorry to call it that but its true. At first she took all her anger out on me and my brother but my brother said straight up, he's not taking it and moved out. Her new boyfriend left because all she does look for the bad in everybody and is just a really negitive person. She always tries to use God to scare me or something. Then when I tell her what's she's saying isn't even in the bible or of God (she'll be cussing me out while trying to thru the bible into play). She goes on about how when she's gone (dead), then I'll see how good she is. I'm like really now? Just like she's gone thru stuff, I've gone thru hell too. This year alone, I've been raped, beat on by ex boyfriend and almost attempted suicide andddd had a friend actually do it (on top of everything I have to remember my dad touching me and hitting me now, stuff that I never even remembered til now.) I have to keep it all to myself, I feel trapped in my mind. She'll tell me she wants to talk and have me explain what I'm feeling but miss the whole point and get defensive when its not even going that way. She'll say well I know I've done nothing to you, you just need to see a consilour or stay with your grandparents because I don't know what you'll do (she asked me after my friend died have I ever thought about it and I said yea now everytime I get mad she throws it in my face, like I'm so crazy and horrible). I feel trapped because I'm trying despratly to tell her about what I've been through but SHE WON'T LISTEN. Everythings about her and everybodys horrible. At the start I just thought I was loosing love for her but now I just feel hate to be honest. Like if she wasn't my mom I wouldn't care to even look at her. I have beyond respect for her though because she's held her own and keeps living her high lifestyle. But I feel like she thinks that's all a person needs when its not, I need her love.