Help! 21 reasons why i hate my life?

from the sun to rain in a second thats how quickly the weather can change, it will get worse before it gets better, and it will take a second to wet the flour and a day to dry it. well, thats how i feel my life is like, accept my world got turned upside down in two days and it has tacken so far 10 years of getting worse, and its still getting worse. i m not going to get into what turned my lifeu up side down, but i will tell you i grew up fast and was ur advarage 11 year old at 5 because of it. here are the things i hate about my life, also i protray the perfect lifestyle, wearlthy, happy but realy i am so sad, and dying all the time inside. these are the things i hate about my life, 1.my parents never stop arguing, 2 im fat, 3 im ugly 4 im useless and worthless 5 i get on everone nervous and everybodys always shouting at me and no one likes me, 6 i have no friends, 7 my dad bribes me to like him better than my mum with exspencive gifts, 8 i was born as the result of an affair, 9 my familys arguing and it all gets dumped on me all the time, 10 i get shouted out for no reason, 11 my parents are so protective i cant go into town on my own and i am 15 and i cant go near a boy 12 i had to grow up so quick i missed out on some of my childhood which i will never get back 13 im terffied of people beating me up or kiddnapping me, 14 if i don't get 100% on every test i have not tried had enough and i better try hard next time, or else i will be in big trouble 15 i f i don;t get higher with my score than another girl in my class, i havent tried hard enough 16 i have never had a boyfriend because i am so ugly 17 most of my brothers and sister have moved away so i have gone from seeing them everday to never seeing them, 18 i end up crying evernight 19 i am not allowed to have a realtionship with my own sister. 20 people call me ugly and fat and tell me i need a new wordrob and finaly 21 my parents have told me so many big lies that i don't trust anyone and the only person who ever got me and i ever trusted died.